Reality Check

Today I found out an old friend of mine died yesterday. We aren't close anymore, but I would see him from time to time. It's hitting me way harder than I think it should. Perhaps with everything I went thru I'm more "sensitive" to these things, or maybe it's just rubbing my own mortality in my face. Whatever it is, I'm so extremely distraught about it. I'm feeling so much sadness for his sister (who was one of my very best friend in high school) and his mother (who used to make me lunch every day). For all of his friends, for him, and for myself. He had one of the biggest hearts I've ever known.