Losing Sleep

Last night I had to force myself to stay up until midnight. I really wanted to get into the online Psychology class rather than having to travel to Gateway in Racine multiple times a week but the class always fills up before I ever get a chance to register. So the plan was to stay up until midnight and register as soon as the date changed to 04/14. I had the hardest time (I think because I worked out for the first time in months) - I kept dozing off and forcing myself awake. Finally midnight rolled around and I hopped online and after one failed attempt, I was registered! I couldn't wait to get to bed.

As I laid in my bed, I noticed the pain in my neck and shoulder and my chest started to feel very heavy. I turned onto my stomach and my arm started hurting. And then I went into panick mode. Convinced I was going to die, I was terrified to go to sleep. I was waiting for a blood clot to burst or a heart attack or stroke. I just laid there waiting and praying.

This is not the first time this has happened to me and I'm sure it won't be the last but I thought it worth blogging about in the Darker Side of Me. This is just one of the many things I don't feel I can talk about to other people - who could possibly understand?